May 2, 2005

  • Christos anesti ek nekron, thanato thanaton patisas, ke ti se tis mni masin zoin kalisamenos!!!

    If you need a translation, ask, dammit. Let’s just say there
    are very few times of year when I feel as overjoyed as I do on Easter.
    Although, let’s just say that you can go back and read my Easter
    entries from last year to find out how it’s been going. Once again, the
    spirit was willing but the flesh was weak, and before I realised it,
    Lent was almost completely over. Now I really dread having to answer
    for this to the Man Upstairs whenever I go to see Him.

    I don’t know if it’s just because I was in a new, taxing, and
    indifferent line of work (railroading doesn’t give you a great deal of
    time to focus on prayer) or if I was flat-out unwilling to keep any
    kind of a fast. It’s going to take a long, long time of soul-searching
    to get that answer, and God only knows if I’ll ever get round to that
    either.

    It could have been a lot worse, though. I was able to make it to most
    of the services during Holy Week, although it really, really ticked me
    off when I had to run a freight train on Good Friday and was only able
    to make it to the Lamentations service.
    (Last time I worked on Good Friday, my life truly went to hell in a
    handbasket for a couple of weeks – although I did work of my own
    volition that time.) At the Lamentations service, though…Ruth and I
    paid as much attention as we could to the incantations, but our efforts
    were frustrated, ironically enough, by a lot of our fellow
    parishioners. The sad part of Easter is, most people in the parish only
    come once a year, and that’s when they do it – so to them, it’s social
    hour. And as such, they get together and shake hands and chit-chat when
    the rest of us are trying to focus on what’s going on at the altar. It
    never happened in such volume at my old church, and I find it extremely
    annoying and disappointing.

    Although not quite as badly as Easter vigil…when the church was
    jam-packed for the reading of the Resurrection Gospel, immediately
    after which two-thirds of the congregation piled out and went home. I
    couldn’t believe it. I wanted to stand up and holler to the back of the
    church, “Where the *%$#!! do you people think YOU’RE going?!” Ah well,
    they’ll have their own transgressions to answer for when their time’s
    up. Ruth and I, along with everybody who stayed to the end at 2:00
    A.M., did get the satisfaction of being commended by our priest for
    sticking around for the entire vigil.

    So here I am, typity-typing away with a train going past
    my window every five minutes…ahh, I’m in hog heaven.
    (Interesting coincidence that “hog” is a slang term for locomotive…)
    Poor little steam engine has apparently gotten the crap beaten out of
    it again, though – its tube sheet is leaking like the FBI, so it had to
    stay indoors for the weekend. So much for my qualifying run. *sigh* In
    case anyone’s wondering, what happened was that somebody or other was
    admitting too much cold air to the firebox, causing the heating tubes
    to contract and leak – and that ain’t good. When I was washing out the
    boiler a couple of months ago, the weld lines on those heating tubes
    were fruitful and multiplying. Can’t say I minded getting the whole
    weekend off, though, after the scads of freight we ran this week -
    switch-o-rama on Thursday and stone train on Friday. Just ONCE, I wish
    those truckers would show up with loads of no more than twenty tons, so
    I don’t have to worry about hauling two or three overweight hoppers
    across the trestle.

    Well, if anything happens, at least now we can blame it on Crash Spill
    Xplode. *muwahahaha* I mean, really, what’s one more derailment on
    their pig-tracked safety record? (You should see what they did to our
    LIRR coaches when they brought those up here…)

    “You’re right, it is a hell of a way to run a railroad.” ~ Unknown

Comments (3)

  • Uh-oh, Chris is Ask-Dammit!   

    You wrote:  “Once again, the spirit was willing but the flesh was weak, and before I realised it, Lent was almost completely over. Now I really dread having to answer for this to the Man Upstairs whenever I go to see Him.”  Chris, that’s what confession is for.  Once this kind of thing is confessed, there is no need to answer for it; it ceases to exist.  And when it happens again, you confess it again, and it ceases to exist again.  God told us to forgive each other 70 x 7 (yes, I know that looks like — gasp! — Math!), but if He expects that of us, it’s only a fraction (the M word again) of how often He is willing to forgive us!  All we have to do is go to confession, and accept the help of our priest!  (BTW, don’t go home to the Man Upstairs *too* soon.  Those of us who love you would like a whole lot more of your company…)

    Also, when you do something that is required of you by someone else, that’s a little different from following your own will.  Ask Fr. Jim about the difference.

    And yeah, it is *so* frustrating when people leave right after receiving the Light.  But as you pointed out, that’s *their* lookout.

    All in all, it sounds as if you are doing just what you are supposed to be doing:  growing into an adult Orthodox Christian.  I congratulate you, in some ways you’re right on schedule, and in others you are light-years ahead of the rest of us.  As for Lent:  its whole purpose is to highlight the areas where we could stand some improvement in our spiritual lives.  So if God chose to point those out to you in a particularly obvious way, that’s a blessing; now you know what you have to work on.  Always, of course, with the help of your priest, who will have to answer to the Man Upstairs not only for his own failings, but also for yours, and everybody else’s.  Egad.  Everyone who knows you, in this part of the world, says that you “should” be a priest.  In some ways, I agree.  But when I think of that awful responsibility, I’m just as glad it’s not something you long for!  (Deacon, on the other hand…  that I could see for you.  Lots of singing and helping out on the altar, without the responsibility for people’s spiritual lives.)

  • Hmm… I don’t believe I’ve ever been told that before.  But I guess…if I squint and turn my head sideways…I can kind of see the resemblance.    And I would say that it’s a tragedy that you never went to prom, but you seem to have emerged from the experience (or lack thereof) relatively unscarred.  But thanks – I did have a wonderful time, and considering I have a lot of friends who will be graduating this year, it was great to be able to spend time with them before June.  *sniff*

    Oh, and happy (belated) Orthodox Easter!  He is risen. 

  • Eeeeeee!  I know what *I* want for my birthday…   Ah, what a friend we have in Bill Amend.  Fandom geeks unite! 

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